going back

I feel really bad right now.

I mean, we used to be really close and now we are so distant.
Maybe he had all his other friends, or maybe something happened.
I don't think I bullied him because we've had fun all the time but now he's all changed, maybe grown-up and matured.

I was really looking forward to having so much fun in Japan that I fantasize it everyday, but today he messaged me on fb to ask me if I'm going back to grandma's place in PD this year because he wish to go back but not without me.

I said I don't know, but truth is I have already decided. Looks like it's one more year before I see my cousins again.