CNY 2018

This is the shortest Chinese New Year visit to Port Dickson.

My parents wanted to go there earlier because they are bored at home so I texted my cousin and decided to hitch their car.

Come CNY eve, I had half day so I wanted to head there earlier and texted my other cousin who said they would wait for me. There was a super huge human jam at the bus stop into customs and another jam at the bus stop at Singapore customs going into JB. We spent almost 2 hours to reach City Square from our house.

We met our cousins and uncle, and then headed towards PD at 4.30pm, traffic jam and reached at almost 11pm. The whole journey was supposed to take 3 hours in normal traffic conditions. Luckily we had something to eat when we reached there, and I bought Japanese snacks for them.

The next day I had news that my dad wanted to go back in the afternoon, so total time spent in PD was less than 24 hours -_- Usually we would spend 2 nights minimum there, but because I had a flight the next day at 10pm. We had the good reunion lunch and catch up with my cousins, then headed home after. It was too short, but at least I had been there.

2013 vs 2018 with my favourite twins. Our hairstyles didn't change LOL.

And then, I am having food poisioning now and going to the toilet every 2-3 hours. It is not fun especially I'm flying off in a few hours.

speaking truthfully

Work have been quite... messy I would say. Work is not evenly distributed and team mates have different mindset. I lost my patience twice in a month already and I can't stop thinking about it.
I hope I can control myself until the new team lead comes in.

I have been in a very bad mood for a few days now. I don't know why but thinking about work just pisses me off. And now I just got news of the confirmed new team lead and felt even worse. Some things I just can't escape. I just hate things I cannot control. OMG. When you say you are more experienced and more senior and higher position I would expect you to do more and produce better quality work and more professional but I don't see any of it when I look through your previous work and when I asked you to remediate you ask me to do it. WOW. It doesn't justify your pay in any way.

Forget it we are at a different career stage right now, I'm at the growth stage but your cycle is ending so it makes no difference to you anyway.

What a bad start to the year. How can I survive the rest of the year ARGH.

Please let me have a peaceful holiday in a few days time.

Speaking truthfully,
I'm not sure why we keep fighting.
You just go blame the bad timing.
Admit it to me, speaking truthfully,
I love you more than you love me

a good quote

"We are responsible for experiences that aren’t our fault all the time. This is part of life.

Fault is past tense. Responsibility is present tense. Fault results from choices that have already been made. Responsibility results from the choices you’re currently making every second of every day. You are choosing to read this. You are choosing to think about the concepts. You are choosing to accept or reject the concepts. It may be my fault that you think my ideas are lame, but you are responsible for coming to your own conclusions. It’s not your fault that I chose to write this sentence, but you are still responsible for choosing whether to read it or not.

There’s a difference between blaming someone else for your situation and them being responsible for your situation. Nobody else is ever responsible for your situation but you. Many people may be to blame for your unhappiness, but nobody is ever responsible for your unhappiness but you. This is because you always get to choose how you see things, how you react to things. You always get to choose which metric with which to measure your experiences with."