well being trade offs

The principle of equivalent trade. It has to be it every time.

I'm currently on my peak state of physical condition. I have not been so fit before in my life and it's not going down any time yet. I have not been sick for the past few years. I have a stable job and income now so that's going very well. While my health and physical well being is near to the best of my life, my mental condition is plagued by waves of self-loathing and depression. 

It's always this time of the year when I get a little bit emotional and I don't understand why I can't seem to get the things I want. Is it the alignment of the stars that made it this way? I know how my mind is structured but I can't seem to escape the overlapping emotions that stack up at random times. Sometimes I feel like I'm a dying star inside, just waiting to supernova anytime or I just want to cringe and hide somewhere safe in a cave, away from the reality of urban life. 

I think it started after my grandmother passed away. Previously, every time I visit her, seeing her or talking to her will always put my mind at rest and seemed that every problem can be solved or I have solved the problem myself unknowingly. I totally have no idea how to do that now.  

I think I need psychological help. I think the reason for these mental torment is because I have been over-obsessing with things and the only way I can get over it is to find something else to be obsessed about. It's like OCD and I can't help it. Like I keep waiting for my neighbor to come online and chat but he never did, so I felt frustrated because I feel like I am talking to myself. And I have been doing that lately. Nobody replies to me nowadays. 

On a side note, my right eyelid had been twitching non stop and ears had been itchy for the past 2 days. I seriously have no idea what's going on. 

Night Fest weekend

This weekend was one of the rare weekends that I have activities from Friday to Sunday

So Friday was the first time drinking with the colleagues, old and new, at 5 bar before dinner at Lao Pasat. It had been a long time since I drank and it was really enjoyable.

Saturday was Japanese dinner with choir peeps at Chijmes and night fest. I just love highballs and Prive's desserts. We watched the fire performance and wanted to eat some neh neh pops but it was sold out.

Sunday tea with Ethan and shanghai gang.

Overall a good relaxing weekend before going back to work on Monday. Sianz.

SG50 weekend

It's SG50 this year so we'r awarded with a 4 day holiday to celebrate our Golden Jubilee!

Friday

Went to the gym, did nothing much. except to finish my comics and shows.

Saturday

It rained in the morning and I was having second thoughts about swimming because the pool is going to be so cold but I did anyways. I wanted to see the aerial display but it was over so I wanted visit the free museums so I headed to the library first to get some books, then walked a big round to MBS to the art-science museum to find it closed because it was past 6pm and they had stopped people from getting in. It was a really warm and humid day and air-condition became my savior. I had 2 scoops of ice cream (for charity) at MBS before heading back home to finish my Knights of Sidonia.

Sunday

MBS with the guys early in the afternoon to catch the really wonderful aerial display. The sound of the roaring engines of the jets is just excruciating and gets me so tense and excited at the same time. The speed they are travelling and the difficult aerial maneuvers created a thrilling movie. Lunch at Crystal Jade and they had chicken rice and chilli crab XLB for SG50! What a weird but delicious combination.

Fantastic Four wasn't fantastic at all. It was such a dark and depressing movie instead of the family-oriented comic that it was intended. I guess the director or the producers were trying too hard to replicate Batman. In my opinion the previous 2 movies were comparably better than this. The beginning were good though, halfway through it just went downhill.

Ant-Man, on the other hand, was so much fun and enjoyable. I watched it some time ago.

Anyway I bought Garrett's popcorn to munch on while watching NDP in the comforts of my home. Ah I feel so patriotic this year. 

SG50.

Happy Birthday Singapore!

Dependence

Argh.

I super hate it when my plans depends on somebody's replies and they take their own sweet time. That's right. I'm an impatient person.
Or maybe I should just make plans on my own and go ahead with it, no matter the person's response. I need to be more independent.

Hide Yamamoto

I have only met Michelle twice in my life and the third time I met her, she treated me to the most expensive meal at the most expensive restaurant I have gone in my entire life. She is easily the richest friend I have.

A turn of event, I didn't join her company but I introduced another capable friend to join so she wanted to treat me to properly thank me for some of my help. When she chose a Japanese restaurant at Marina Bay Sands and Issey specifically asked me to dress up, I knew it's not going to be just another simple dinner. In fact, I arrived early to do some recon. There were only 4 Japanese restaurant in MBS. Waku Ghin and Hide Yamamoto are the two crazy high-end fine dining restaurants, HY California and Bay Sushi are the casual ones. For Issey to say "dress up", my heart was pounding with excitement and my mind whirling around what crazy meal I'm getting into. 

Hide Yamamoto. Michelle is a regular at the restaurant and she knows the chef and his specials,  like the first sushi tuna roll with dried mango bits which is not on the menu. She just kept on ordering while Issey and I chatted a bit and I was so afraid she was going to over-order. 

First up, appetiser which was ok,

This platter of sushi is out of the world. I have no idea what she ordered but every bite is orgasm

THIS CHAWANMUSHI. Black truffle egg flan with sea urchin and snow crab. I simply cannot take it. I cannot believe such chawanmushi exists. The smooth and melts in your mouth orgasm, bursting with thousand flavours of the sea, forest and sky. 

Really fresh tiger prawns teppanyaki

OMG this truffle claypot rice with i-dunno-what-amazing-things-inside. 

Hotate sushi

Beef sirloin and Foie Gras teppanyaki. I simply cannot describe.

Swordfish, Snapper and Tuna Otoro sushi, Avocado and crabmeat in the background. That was after 3 rounds of Tuna sushi.

Peach Melba with Sake ice cream and almond for dessert

In addition, we ordered 2 bottles of sake 4 times, until one of the sake ran out of stock. Total 8 bottles.

I stole a glance at the bill. It was $1400++ for 3 person. 

I just cannot.