losing momentum

Sometimes I just feel sad for myself.

Being posted in a dangerous foreign land, receiving about $1000 less than my peers with huge income taxes, less than 2 weeks of annual leave and getting higher level of work and stress.

It made me forget what benefits this brought to me, like incredible online shopping, cheap eats and easy travelling. But $1000 per month can buy me too many things.

I can fly here every month with a lot to spare,
I can fly to Japan every month with few to spare,
I can fly to Jiu Zhai Gou with a lot to spare,
I can buy at least 5 lego sets every month
I can buy at least 3 Google Nexus 7
I can buy 2 Ipads
I can rent a very luxurious room here.

I'm losing my momentum to stay here already and somebody is tired of me saying this, but I felt like going back now.

New laptop and OS

Yes, my life is kinda back to normal with my new laptop finally here! I just love my Asus S46 that I bought another similar one, now with a new Windows 8 version.



After using for less than an hour, I got the hang of it, just switching between the start menu and desktop is pretty fun, and overall the experience is pretty cool. A lot of wonderful functions, fast and smooth response, not laggy like the previous windows. Its like using a tablet on laptop, kinda makes me feel like buying tablet.

The desktop being integrated into start menu is pretty amazing, for example when I play a video or music file it automatically launches into the app and plays in full screen, and you could change if you wanna open it in the traditional media player mode. There are a few bugs here and there, like the user account bug. I hope they solve it in the next update.

Anyway I'm very pleased with the new OS and finally my own laptop instead of the company's laptop. Sighs. I really hope the person who took my old one will get his retribution and the laptop make its way back to me.

mid-year crisis

The mid-year crisis is happening again.

Everytime I'm at this stage of the year I have no idea which direction to go and what to do, I just hate it.  

Why doesn't life go smoothly?

Content and complacent

Today we did a meaningful job of learning and doing recycling, its just like old times doing CIP, feel good about giving back to the environment and society.

The experience brought back many thoughts about life.

People tells us to be contented with life.

Your manager tells you not to be complacent.

So we'r supposed to be two different kind of person in life and in work?

I really don't know. 

Should I be or not be contented with my house?

finally a good day

Finished a big presentation and end of project

Received my package today:

50 岚 aka KOI aka 小点点 opened near my office and I had the smooth 仙草奶冻

Ended work (at 6.30) and went to the gym for some spinning class

Had a free cookie at my regular subway

I just wish life is like that everyday.

$300

What can an additional $300sgd per month provide:

A more safe, secure and cleaner environment with a bigger living space and comfortable sofa, a bigger toilet that you can dance around and soak in the bath tub, a wonderful kitchen with baking oven, the convenience of heading to your gym downstairs, instant hot water and shower in winter, and a bigger TV and bed. 

EVERYDAY.

or it could also provide:

At least 2 lego sets every month 

or
A google nexus 7 every month

or
A trip to Beijing every month (provided there is free food ANYWHERE and lodging) 

or
A side trip to Hong Kong every month 

or
An Ipad or Ipad mini every 2 months 

or
A trip to Japan every 2 months 

or
A trip Korea every 2 months 

or
A laptop every 3 months

Dilema Dilema Dilema

what

I was so confused for the past month because I thought I have lost my game. I have always been so comfortable with my style of working until people around me started to disrupt my zen. Like how my manager had been consistently nagging me about that action plan for the project, or how my colleague have been nagging me on what to do and how to plan etc. 

WHATTTTTTTTTTTT

It's just so I don't like to get into detail like writing actions like "get picture for the logo" or "change the picture" etc into the plan, or like I want to get into details for a 15 minute presentation. And you don't have to force your way of complicated thinking into others you know. Why do you have to keep overthinking and make things so complicated? Gosh.

They always say engineers solve problems, and simplify complicated problems. I need get rid of the headache now, rethink like how I thought in lectures and exams.

Now I have gotten my zen back, I need to complete the project to negotiate for a better career route and find a better housing. 

Housing. Argh.

after Beijing

As in many typical office work culture, the first day of work after a long holiday is always a mountain of emails about work.

While I wish to update my blog about my good trip in Beijing, there's really much to do this month.
Beijing total damange: 2250rmb (1132rmb of it was on flight)

I have one urgent thing to complete mid May and another very urgent project to be finished by 1 June. Besides, I also have lotsa on-going projects to handle, excel and ppt to review and many meetings to coordinate. Meanwhile, I'm bring work home every night, with too many things to complete before the next day. Sighs. I miss the days of taobao and facebook and other random shits.

The good thing is, after this month, everything will be more relaxed because my manager and colleague will be away. Hee hee.

So for this month I wont be heading to the gym as much ( I don't really need to anyway), and its just work work work.