Parasite Obsession

Why am I so late to Parasite?

I've heard good reviews about it, but I'm just sceptical about those Korean drama because their tv series are all the same: poor girl meets rich guy, guy likes girl but parents object and tries to get rid of girl, and girl finds out she's adopted, actually rich, guy's ex gf got into car accident. It's all the same thing. At first I thought it's just another sci-fi movie about some parasite, just riding on The Host movie trend.

BUT

Parasite was amazing. I love movies with long takes like Children of Men, Gravity and Roma. It really tests the skills of the whole crew, especially the actors. I really like this film, it taught me a lot of things that I didn't know about cinematography, like the 180 rule, line crossing, the moving and static cameras as the story progresses or stops. It's simply wow. I'm so obsessed with the movie, although there wasn't any happy ending, the director wanted us to get back to harsh truth of reality.

Sigh. Why do I seem to get obsessed with things so quickly.

Till the next obsession.

Do I really need to go somewhere?

Now the virus has come to consume us all!

I'm feeling so restless. I was planning my second snow trip to Japan & Hong Kong but the virus situation is so unstable. I shouldn't be risk adverse but also half of my heart doesn't want to go to HK. And I have no holiday plans now.

Jarren asked me if I want to go Bkk in April but considering the virus and the wetness there it's gonna be so dirty and crowded. I'd rather go when nobody's there, like 2 weeks later.

Brian just asked me "do you really need to go somewhere?" And that really sets me thinking.
Do I really need to go somewhere? Maybe I'm just having holiday withdrawals now. Am I thinking of an excuse to just set myself free of the routine life and spend some money and eat some good stuff?
Yea I guess I can do that here as well, just skip gym for the weekend and go eat some nice stuff, drink some cocktails, dance at the club.

But the novelty of going overseas is still not there. No snowboarding, no hotels, no special Jap items shopping, no binge-shopping or binge-sushi eating. Ok I'm just talking about Japan. It's probably just holiday withdrawals. I can't wait to feel the winter and snowboard again urgh.
Should I go Osaka?

less drinks less Nicky

Ok so goals for 2020:
1. Drink less. The memory losses are scaring me, especially when Nicky is out.
2. Be less Nicky. I don't want Nicky's reputation in my circle of friends. I am not desperate.

And now with the Virus? Probably alcohol is good for killing the virus.

feeling and short term goal

I keep having this weird uncomfortable and uneasy feeling about myself. I think it has to do with the age. I have so many issues now: my thinning hair, my constant sensitive and ageing face, the never-burning fats on my body- it's never ending.

I think it's time to go back to basics? I don't know. I keep having to reassure myself that I'm comfortable right now and taking deep breaths. I don't need anything more and I just need to work towards my goal in 2 years time.