I have been

1. I've been eating too much sugary or fatty stuff nowadays. I must stop.

2. I've been watching emo teen movies like perks of being a wallflower recently and it's affecting my mood a little bit

3. But I've also been reading Dune, which is a sci-fi book, so I'm occupying myself and time with the book. And mostly keeping to myself, which is quite unhealthy.
4. I've been drinking way too much. Every weekend without fail, I'll make myself a gin tonic or hit the bars with Jarren or hit the club with liquid buffets. My liver says halp. 

I haven't been socialising with friends recently and keeping to myself and watching depressing shows isn't helping. Argh. I need to get out of the house more. and I totally look forward to London. 

who I want to be

When I was in high school I first read Spider-Man it was the time when Aunt May discovered Peter was Spider-Man and she kept to herself. There were no speeches, just pictures of where she went, what she did and how she felt. All the stories told through pictures, no words. I was all in. And Peter's life and my life was changed then. I had wanted to become Spider-Man.

Everytime I read a good story it leaves me with a warm fuzzy feeling and I always inspire to become that main character.  Harry potter doesn't work on me. But stories are stories. Like when I watched winter soldier, Cap was so cool I wanted to become him. Anyway I just finished reading a good book and I have the happy feeling now. I just want to leave it that way.

A few days ago I was lazy to shave so I left it on, and I saw Captain America Infinity War pics on IG, I thought to myself: hey I could actually do that look.

Then I posted a poll on IG. It skewed towards NO initially, then it skewed to Yes, then it ended a 50-50. How can I decide that. Anyway I decide to do away with the hassle and shaved everything off. One day, one day.

June booked

So London is confirmed in end June.

I've got a lot of planning to do and lotsa gin to buy, and I'm also going for Taylor Swift's concert woohoo. My first time in Europe and it's going to be a while for me to get used to. Luckily I've got a nice and convenient apartment and friends who are already there to show me around. I need to eat as much local food as I can now.

Simonpool

Over last week I watched two family movies: Love Simon and Deadpool. Yeah, they are both movies about family, except they are M18 and R21. It's weird right.

The company gave free tickets to Love Simon and it was really quite good. The movie differs from the book though, the movie was more dramatic. Everything was too easy and perfect , perfect friends, perfect family etc but it really doesn't happen in real life. The actor looks like a druggie.

Deadpool was more exciting. So after my parents ditched me by going to JB at the last minute on Sunday I had to find my own activity so I went out, bought Par-tea 1for1, met Nelly and went to Suntec for Korean food with Shiyun. Ah I haven't had Korean for so long. Then we suddenly went to watch Deadpool. I love the movie. So many inappropriate jokes, so many puns and movie references it was hilarious and not to forget the X-men in it, all action packed. I am just upset that shatterstar died so quickly because I liked him in the comics.

Anyway it's cost-cutting weekends for me for the next few weekends coz I gotta prepare for London.

loose

I'm getting more loose after my Danang trip.

I'm more loose with my wallet and I have been spending most of my money on food and snacks, especially when Donki has so many weird things to buy. I really can't afford to travel anymore in May because I have been travelling every month since the start of the year and my savings are depleting, and I'm heading to somewhere far in June/July so it's another big ticket.

With the loose wallet comes my loose belt. I haven't been disciplined enough after Danang to exercise consistently. Ok I will do it. I will cut my belly fats before my big ticket trip.

Love infinity

After 10 years of making and story building, it all leads to this:

 

The first time I had to watch alone to absorb everything. I booked the best seats in the biggest cinema. I was on my seat the whole 2.5hrs in the movie and so excited my eyes were widening every time a surprise comes up. The movie was so good I nearly teared after it ended and wished it never did.

The second time I watched with another friend, I noticed some of the small details (like Thor's different eye colours) and I actually feel for Thanos. He's so charismatic in his way and determined, he's like a hero in his own way.

I really can't believe Marvel really pulled this off. 10 years in the making starting from Iron-man, it's because they didn't have the X-men franchise that they did Avengers, so thankfully Fox actually screwed up X-men and Fantastic Four, and Marvel shared Spider-Man with Sony. The first time in movie-making history, the most number of main characters in a single movie and crippled the film making industry for the moment because of their filming schedules. This is holy remarkable.

I loved Marvel since I picked up my first Spider-Man comic when I was 12 years old and I'm loving it more and more. I'm super super excited for Captain Marvel and the next Avengers.

It's May

There are so many things I want to rant about. The first half of the year is too fast, it's already third of May, one more month and we are halfway through 2018, and I still write my dates as 2017. How can time past so fast!!!

I felt like I haven't achieved anything except to go on holidays and my 2 snowboarding trips seemed so far away, and I miss Danang now, and I have to plan my next holiday. So far London is in the works in June/July and Piti asked me if I wana join him in Paris so it depends on Andrew's friend and my travel budget.
I also want to go Japan to get all the new Japanese gins, Kamakura shirts, Porter bag, Sagami, Beams and all the sales stuff. Argh I can't decide. I don't have anything to buy from UK (except London Blue Gin) but I haven't been there before. Anyway I gotta book my holiday soon.

Secondly, I'm starting to feel the dread of work everyday. Although I like the benefits of receiving a sum of money every month to spend on my holidays, and I have more holidays than most people, I don't feel satisfied or motivated to go to work. Everyday is just following the timetable, waking up to reach the office at 8.30am and waiting to come home at 5.30pm. I feel kind of stuck here because my manager's not supporting my progression so I can't progress. That's why I need to find a better job. I don't appreciate somebody making my career path for me. If I think I can do it means I can do it, it's not for anyone to say I can't do it.

Thirdly, this year's not been so good for me. Well, it's subjective, but things hasn't gone as smoothly as before, like work, travel, shopping and friends, but everything worked out in the end. The principle of equivalent trade. Like I went to Vietnam to activate the $7 Starhub travel data plan to find out that it doesn't work in Vietnam, and thought I wasted the $7 just like that. Then, I found out that I overused my local data plan in SG and left with 200MB for 4 days, I actually can use the Starhub data plan which has 1GB. So yea everything worked out so I shouldn't complain, but the initial rough patch was the mood killer. Ok things were good in the end so I shouldn't think too much.

Forth, as usual, people. Now I get why people love to travel with me, because I find the best deals and best places to eat, drink and explore. I also do tonnes of research and planning before venturing into unfamiliar places but that's because I want to savour the fruits of my labour. I want to have a good holiday and satisfy my cravings and people just love to follow me haha. After so many IG stories, my friends started to text me on going Japan or hippie places in Danang or BKK. Well if you are good at something, you shouldn't do it for free - just saying.

Fifth, I'll update later coz it's time for bed now.