my social and comfortable life

I've been thinking too much about my social life. 

Last year I was overseas almost every month so I didn't really think that much, but this time I had to save up a lot more for my future house, so no going overseas every month. 

Yea so I shouldn't worry about my social life coz things come and go, if it happens it happens, if it doesn't then it doesn't. I just have to sail with the currents. I have to settle myself first before I can settle others, and I enjoy being alone and doing my own things.

I am satisfied with my life now, I do not need more troubles, I do not need more friends, although I need some drinking friends. I do not need to spend extra money. I do not need to go out of the way now.

I'm actually very comfortable right now, sometimes it scares me to be so comfortable because things might change in an instant and I have to deal with life again. Sigh moving life. 

2019 first singing

First KTV session this year. Can you believe it? I haven't sang for 7 months, not even in KTV bar. Wow.

So Friday after work I went for a choir practise (first time too) and I just can't LOL.
I didn't know the songs, I lost touch with reading scores, but my muscle memory of using the right muscles to sing is still there. So it was kind of a warm-up for me, then I rushed off at 9pm for KTV with Kat.

This proved that warm-up is super important. I could reach the high notes easily and I was hitting most of the notes, so I could work on my other expressions. OMG I really miss singing. I had so much emotions accumulated inside me I just need to sing them out. And all the breathing is like yoga - it releases the stress. I felt so amazing after.

I brought this precious Japanese gin to share with Kat while she brought soda water. We later found out that the brewery said it's best with soda water. The citrus taste took over the juniper, there wasn't much juniper taste but it's really the Japanese subtilty and clearly distributed after-taste. It's really uniquely Japanese and we finished the bottle by ourselves  in Teo Heng LOL.

We were mildly buzzed (like a 7) and Kat invited me to her place for more drinks and we met Evan downstairs and after her Hendricks Nicky came but luckily I was already on the grab. Amazing night, as always, with Kat.

The next day, hangover, and I couldn't gym properly and when I was doing cardio I was sweating oranges LOL. I could literally smell the orange in my sweat. Amazing gin.

somebody just can't keep his mouth shut

Sigh all these things happen because I shared some secrets with Jason and he can't keep his mouth shut.

I shouldn't have trusted him with things. Totally regretted when I thought he's somebody I could confine in and apparently he doesn't think it's his fault, he was like yea at least I didn't tell them out of nowhere. Like seriously??? And claimed that it's a game?? Of coz it's a game to you coz you are not the parties involved la duh.

Such a turn off

Bangkok July

Every time I go Bangkok I just want a relaxing time and chill but no, my friends love to drag me out to drink and dance till 3am everyday.

Initially I wanted to go the weekend before, because I desperately needed a break and Tao is in Bkk as well but I met Jason for lunch that day and he said he and Edward are going this weekend, so might as well.

So, Friday I brought my backpack to work and went to the airport straight after. Landed at around 10pm and it was raining heavily but it stopped when I reached my hotel and checked in. The first text when I arrived in Bkk was "Daddy where are you" from M. LOL. I met Jason and Edward first, then M texted and went to hit the clubs. 2am, crispy pork soup by the roadside for supper and M sent me back.

Neab was super late for brunch at ROAST, and then we went to Central World and Siam to shop around, bubble tea, then he brought me to this unexpectedly good Thai restaurant for dinner.

The green curry was too spicy for me. The fried rice was wonderful, probably the best fried rice I've had. The wok-hei was good, not too spicy not too salty, bits of onion added crunch, it was just heaven.

There's also this braised pork and magic omelette.

I have no idea how they made it, it's good but too oily for me. Overall, the best meal I've had in Bangkok so far.

And then ice cream later, and I went back to the hotel to rest for a bit and I thought of drinking at a good cocktail bar to rest for the night, but Jason and Edward wanted to hit the clubs. They were crazy but the crowd wasn't that good. And then we had shots and we were mildly high and Nicky came out. I wanted to go back after 2am but they dragged me to the another club that Tao and M always avoid LOL. Jason was gone, Edward and Nicky were high. And if Edward weren't there...

I woke up at 11am, walked to Terminal 21 for lunch and waited for Neab while nursing a bad hangover. Both of us were really zombies. Went to eat pork noodles, then Siam for coffee and I went back to rest before meeting him for dinner for local food.

It was Maggie Choo's time! I really love Maggie Choo's on a Sunday night. It's just so awesome and it's a ritual for me when I go Bkk, and it was one of the performer's birthday so we get extra good shows. The music, the shows, the crowd and everything is just so good. And after that J and E dragged me to club again omg. It was so bad. The crowd and music on a Sunday night, got lost in the grab car, and got back at the hotel at 3.30am

I had to wake up at 8.30am for my massage at 9am. It was just too early and the masseur fell asleep too I think LOL. M brought me out for lunch, went to Uniqlo to get my AW, then he drove me to the airport. Such a sweet daughter I have. Checked in with Ed and Jase and some awkward situations and secret sharing on the flight, then drove Jase back with some harassment from him.

The most tiring Bangkok trip so far omg.

Friday fly

And tomorrow is the first time I'm going to the airport right after work.

I desperately need a holiday to escape this madness, especially this morning during the talk, I was so dumbfounded. Everything in my head just went blank. There are so many scenarios that I had imagined and rehearsed in my head, all gone in 1 second. I didn't even speak a single word.

Hi Bangkok, see you soon.

Room Project: Phase 3

Phase 1: Evaluation
Domi came over to evaluate my room, it's really in a mess. He told me I have to get rid of a few things, including my ugly blue cupboard that I painted myself and my sagging long Micke desk and my door. And I have to buy storage boxes for my Kallax cupboard and hanging shelf on top of my tv to display my bottles or gundams. That means I have to re-arrange all my stuff in my bookcase and wardrobe to make space for the items in my blue cupboard that I'm going to get rid of.
And I have an uneven wall that I don't know what to do.

Phase 2: Marie Kondo
I thought I have a lot to throw away, but mostly things from more than 10 years ago.
Files - gave to my younger cousins
Travel stuff - Bought a Muji drawer to put in my wardrobe, some in my Kallax
Electronics - Sold some of my stuff, including my discman, the rest kept in bookcase
Party stuff - Threw most away
Memory stuff - Threw some, kept some. Re-arranged in my bookcase.
That's 5 levels of my blue cupboard. From the bookcase, I threw away old books and magazines and I'm going to get rid of some of my manga as well. It's almost full now. I also bought storage boxes for my Kallax

Phase 3: Renew
After throwing away my sagging table and giving away my blue cupboard, I bought a new, smaller Micke desk which fits perfectly at a corner of my room, beside the TV. I took 2 hours to assemble.

There is so much space now in my room, I can host a mini drinking party. I'm left with buying a long cushion seat with storage or ottoman to host friends when they come over for my gin collection. I recently acquired this limited edition Summer Hendricks, so excited to open it. I hope it doesn't taste like the Nordes Atlantic.

I hope my room changes my fengshui. Retiring the old, welcoming the new.

Also, long term:
1. Fill the uneven wall (buy a putty)
2. Paint my wall grey
3. Buy hanging shelves to display my gundams or empty bottles
4. Change my door
5. Set up a drinking corner

Then again, I'll be getting my own place in 2.5years, so...

1 month no stories

For a month I have not posted any IG stories. This is a record!

I usually do IG stories to remind myself and to recap what I have done but since my social seclusion I've been tempted a few times but nah, what's the point? I could also do the same with photos in my phone, I don't need to let everyone know. 

I know I can't escape Instagram coz I wanna know how my friends are doing. That one day I went all crazy on social media because I was bored and I ended up really crazy. My mind was a mess until the next day I decided to stop everything. This crazy amount of information feed really messes up your mind, especially the information that you don't need to know. 

I'm slowly getting used to decreasing phone usage. 

Mopey Spidey

I'm beginning to think it's because the Marvel era is over.

I mean, they ended black widow, Ironman and Captain America Steve Rogers. They are the real pioneers of MCU and nobody can replace them. Plus the Nic thing. Sigh my life. That's why I've been feeling mopey.

Anyway, just caught the second Spiderman movie with Nelly on opening. Honestly I'd prefer a more mature theme like the first few movies from Sony but I think they just want to appeal to the kids. Mysterio was amazing though, it was such a good plot twist and totally connected with his comic origins. And the mid credit scene is wud...

My room is changing faster than I expected. I have been clearing my rubbish most weekends for a month now and bought all the furniture I need. Now I just need to get rid of my old furniture and then project complete. By the time I come back from Bangkok my room will be ready to receive gin-drinking guest.

Honestly I'm at a loss what to do after my room project is completed.

Nicky

Nicky comes out after 3 gin tonics at home or 7 vodka orange in the clubs or 2 bottles of wine anywhere.

Nicky is super sociable, seductive and gives off the naughty vibes, as his friends would describe him. He just eyes everyone in the club, and see who smiles at him or who would grab his attention. He doesn't need to get other people's attention because he knows his place and standing. He gently avoid those he doesn't want and says hi to those he wants, and most of the time, for some reason, girls just like to talk to him.

Last weekend at the club with his friend Nicky caught the attention of somebody with a strawberry scent and got a fisherman's friend mixed berry candy from him, and he walked along the toilet queue line a girl pulled him into the line. She said her name was Brenda and her friend in front in Stanley and another guy behind, forgot the name. She asked why Nicky smells like strawberries and asked for a sweet. Nicky gave her the cherry flavoured fisherman's friend instead, and Stanley wanted one as well, and so does behind guy. Stanley was interested but Nicky hugged the guy behind more. Brenda said she's getting married next year lol.

Then Nicky saw somebody topless and kinda frowned at him and asked "why are you naked?" and the guy just "I'm not naked!" LOL. Then Stanley pulled Nicky to the table that they reserved and Brenda pulled Nicky up.

Then Nicky went back to find his friend who was alone and he felt bad for ditching him. 

Neab's weekend

Friday

Neab arrived, I met him after work and brought him to Coconut club for some atas Nasi Lemak, and then PS café for some cakes. It was soooooo good to see and catch up coz we were both feeling quite down and depressed in this period of time, we both had experienced the same things and we both needed a break from all these madness. 

After that 2 bottles of wine at some bar at Ann Siang, Domi and his friend came to join, then another bottle at another bar, and ended up with Jarren and Shiyun at the usual. Gab made us a super strong long island, it was crazy and I ended up really tipsy. Neab stayed at Kesa House, which was really nice, I might consider there for a staycay.

It has been so long I had so much alcohol and luckily Domi is my neighbour, he dropped off first and I walked home and was singing Someone like you on the way back at 3.30am. 

Saturday

I woke up with a bad hangover. Brunch at Populus, coffee at Nylon and Baristart, we went to Artscience museum for some exhibition, then orchard for Japanese that Sean was raving about but both of us felt really meh.

We went home, changed, couldn't decide where to drink so I brought my alcohol to drink in his room. Finally cleared my 99.99 and Vietnamese vodka, and we had such deep conversation about politics, friendship, relationship, life etc, holy deep, then we went out to party.

The party was madness. We both had a jug of vodka redbull, then Nicky came out. Neab met some thai friends, I met other people, Samuel, Strawberry, Stanley, Brenda and her friend (forgot the name) but no contacts were exchanged. And then we went to another club again, met Dwayne and some of my friends and we went back at 3.30am.

The taxi uncle was trying to introduce this young divorced lady with 2 kids to me, and then his daughter, and told me about his family and I was like !??!?!?

Sunday
I woke up feeling bad again, I think it's the age. We met at Orchard, had local at Wisma foodcourt, Nana green tea, went shopping at Orchard, hiking at Henderson wave, Ikea, KEK seafood for dinner and leftover drinks at his room again. We were so tired after 2 days of partying and 1 day of hiking.

Monday
I was half dead at work today. Met him for lunch at Amoy, walked around and he went to the airport to explore Jewel.

In the past 2.5days this weekend, I spent the same amount as I did for the last 28 days. It is crazy amount of money spent on food, alcohol and party. I cannot. I'm going Bangkok later this month and I hope I still have money.