Drinking strong zero at esplanade

I am so addicted to this that I always ask friends to buy back for me whenever they go Japan. Even last year I bought 6 big cans back but they expire within a few months so I don't know where to stock up, until last week I found out they were selling in 7-11. The catch is, it's $6 per can, compared to $1.50 in Japan. Oh wells, no choice, but I have been drinking this almost every alternate days. I sleep so well after that mild buzz in the head.

I met Paeng last Sunday. We bought 4 cans of strong zero and found a spot on the roof of esplanade for drinking and admiring the sunset. It was really nice. I told her about the night at CC's and the morning after. It was good but I thought I was a bit over, we had lunch together but ate in silence because he was looking at tik toks and I was just dazing. Probably we got bored of each other already. Just like Vic said, she repeated just enjoy the moment while it lasts, don't be so serious about it. Don't worry/ think about it too much. It's better to do it than to regret not doing. Anyway we decided to hang out this week because she's moving to Dubai and I'm way too bored this season.

Seriously. I am going crazy from boredom and thinking too much about things being stuck at home for a whole month already.

No eating out coz restaurants closed, no gym to let out all the excess energy, no going to office for a change in environment, no socializing with friends coz 2 pax only. This is outrageous. 

a fake discovery

Such a dramatic week but it was all happening in my head. 

There was a holiday on Thursday so I took a day leave on Friday because I just have no motivation to work. Or do anything else. I'm so unmotivated to do anything. It's not just me, I had dinner with Eric on Thurs and he said nowadays he just lie on his bed and look at his ceiling. What is the pandemic doing to us?

Also on Thursday night I was checking the map and detective me discovered something and couldn't go to sleep after that. I was so affected the entire night and the day after, I just have to approach the subject on Saturday. And then I realised - it was a fake. So dumb. I was quite relieved when I made too many wrong assumptions and also relieved that things were cool on Saturday. 

Nothing ever lasts. XL is coming back next month and I can't go to Rocher anymore. 

Free time

Ever since working from home started, I could free out a lot of time saved from travelling, walking around the office and those little pockets of free time in between.

Too much time is no good, I'm really bored now and I need something to think about if not my mind would go crazy. The gym is closed for a month, no marketing this month coz all red. I actually have work to do but I'm just procrastinating right now. 

I need to find something useful to occupy my time. My gundams are coming in July with Shikai. My Japan trip is researched and ready. Reading book ongoing. Not much shows to watch nowadays. Urgh. What else is there to do??? Study?

Also, I've achieved my goals that I set in Feb. Gold in IPPT, cure face eczema, Marie Kondo my wardrobe. Tick Tick Tick. What else?

Nothing is going right

This is bad. 

The gym is going to close for a month next week because phase 2 restarted.

I need to wait out the market coz my trades are all in red now.

My emotions are clouding my judgement.  

I knew it. I had 2 really good months in March and April, and I was thinking something's going to go wrong somehow and now the bad things are coming to bite me in the ass. The principle of equivalent trade. 

 

The newspaper horoscope this week so is accurate. If I need to get through this downturn, support from friends is important. Adjust my mindset accordingly, don't fret over those who are not worth it. 

Drinking resetting everything

I haven't got so drunk in years. Vivi and I went to the amazing izakaya again, and we ordered 2 bottles of shochu. The food was so good as usual - tuna chunks, cooked octopus, oden, pig's internal organs, karage. I can't believe I drank so much, I can't remember how I got to Andy's place I just remembered I puked on the grass while waiting. LOL it was horrible. 

This morning I woke up and I felt as if my body is resetting, physically and mentally. Physically as in I feel that my body just went through a change and also sleeping cycle resetting. Mentally... work wise and emotional wise. For once I felt that I need to complete some objectives at work instead of feeling bored and procrastinating all the time.

Last week I was in a super bad mood the whole week because:

1. The market was red the whole week.

2. My watch finally went out of battery after 5 years and I was changing the battery but the needle came out and I had to bring to a watch shop to fix, and he had to pass to another friend to do it because he didn't have the expertise to do it. It's still in the shop.

3. The situation with CC needs to end and I'm just being a parasite. It's very difficult for me and I need to revert to my February focus. It's the end and it's decided.

I guess that's why people drink a lot more when they are in a bad mood. Everything resets the morning after. 

New perspectives, new mentality, new objectives, new-found focus.

Evangelion clear folder

My team leader came back from Japan and bought me a souvenir. She's so cute.

So damn cool. It's a clear folder inside the metallic packaging. It's no longer with me - with somebody who appreciates more.