DnD

I cannot comprehend why employees don't like to go for Dance and Dinner. Food, entertainment, drinks, interaction, networking and all at one place for free. On top of that, the more involved everyone is, the more fun it gets. The first DnD I attended was in Exxon, where everyone, including all the big managers were so into the theme and every costume was so fabulous, the best table was too difficult to decide.

This time round was my first dinner at MBS ballroom with around a massive 2200 people. I didn't expect to have such a great time, maybe it was the wine or beer, or the two international colleagues, L and T, who I didn't interact much with in office suddenly had so much to exchange. T from Czech and I were the only ones to dress up for The Great Gatsby, the theme and she brought a bottle of really good whisky to share on the table. L from Argentina sat beside me and we just clicked immediately and she was telling me not to leave and asking the big boss to hire me and sorts. 

It was the alcohol. After the 3rd dish I can't stop nodding my head with the music. The live band was really good and the 3 of us were sitting down dancing to the music. The food was good too and after the dinner we danced a little while and went to T's friend's place where there were a group of people but I couldn't remember any of their names. 

I gained some fascinating knowledge.

T talked about how she thought it's not possible to have no winter anywhere so she brought all her winter clothes to sg, how the CEO of some big bank is a slut and the lady that slept with him told her.

L said all the bank employees in Latin America had ONS and slept with each other openly and party every other night. And the clubs open till 9am in the morning so they go for breakfast after that. 

Some parts of the industry is really crazy I guess. or some parts of the world is really crazy.
Lovely event. Lovely friends.

some rules

I'm enforcing some rules to my life.

• Ice cream/sweet stuff at most once a week
• Fried stuff at most once a week
• Running at least once a week
• Gym at least once a week
• No more spending on extravagant food if not necessary
• No more extra spending on clothes if not necessary

I'm limiting myself to $100 per week. Kind of returning to the life of a student. 

Organising myself

I need to organize myself.
4 months; 120 days had past and I am still in the same state.
I am typing and deleting this too many times because I don't know how to feel about this.

Should I treat this state seriously or should I be patient? In school everything has been planned for, your exam schedules, your estimated time of graduation, your holidays, the end of your holidays etc. So as students we don't have to be afraid or worry that we would lose our status as a student because we always have something ahead of us.

But none is present the moment you graduate and drop that status. You become an adult. You have a responsibility. You have the social pressure.

Something I feel myself suffocating because of the condition I'm under. That desperation. That helplessness. That  feeling of losing. Every second, every minute, every hour, every day, every month. I feel that I could collapse into a black hole any time, with nowhere to go and no way out except to deep further into the empty grounds.

This is tougher than any exams or tests that I have been through. From the past I have always gotten the second choice, like instep vs summer exchange, Korea vs Taiwan exchange, Ford vs Exxon, Mitsubishi vs IR, PG vs UL, and it had worked really well for me so far, until now. It was really easy in the past and now is the real test of luck. That one time failure in UL made me realise how I have been so backward in my thinking and reacting skills as compared to 2 years back.

I used to have so much potential as a student, I need to go back to my notes and begin my thinking journey again.

Organizing my thoughts with discipline and not act or react on impulse/emotions, without using my brain.

11.11

The biggest online shopping day in the world is upon Singapore.

I have spent about SGD300 in one day, just on online shopping and I can't wait for my stuff to be shipped here! I simply can't resist because there are cheap shipping, rebates, hongbaos and lotsa great stuff. Taobao is a poisonous drug.

So I bought a pair of boots, boot laces, hair trimmer, baby stuff, 5 pairs of socks, a pair of shoes, ski googles, a xmas scarf and 10 boxes of contacts.

It's a very early Xmas for me!