u.

U commented y i was so sweet to ht and not to u.. visiting u at the hospital right after work and buying stuff for u not good enuff? and somemore at dat point of time hu needs more support? u or ht? i spent more time and money on u and in the end u'r still not satisfied? you r plain selfish and u wan all the things to urself... onli care abt how ppl treat others and u wan the same treatment rather than realising how ppl had been good to u all the while.

i offered to tok to u.. and commented while u were toking to mi.. and u juz shut mi up by saying 'i cannot tok to you one...' and the next day i had to approach u b4 u apologise. how sincere. and u complained dat nobody wans to listen to u.

plz take ppl's feelings into consideration when ppl even offer to tok to u. dun juz think 'oh i m just angry dat time'.. so anger is an excuse to piss ppl off? oh you might say 'oh i din noe i pissed u off'...

to put it in simple terms, you r not sensitive enuff to your frens' feelings. you onli considered for urself and your dear bf.

you asked mi a question... 'if all ur close frens asked you to go n die would u?' i definitely said i will. coz i noe that they care for mi and they always haf a reason to ask mi to do so.. i trust their judgement. perhaps mayb i was suffering from some terminal disease and they dun bear to see mi suffer. i trust my close friends and their decisions. i noe that they'r good for mi.

but do u? no. u said u wun do it coz you r an active person and u think actively blah blah blah... it's coz u dun trust ur close fren's judgements. u onli trust urself regardless of what ur frens say.. if u even trust their judgement y dun u juz follow them? all ur frens told u not to be together wif him.. but in the end u still made ur own decision rite. u knew in the begining u wan to b wif him... and u still cared for ur frens by listening to them... then explain to them after u got together wif him. y not juz get together wif him then explain? u wasted ur frens' effort in toking to u.. and u listened to them so that u can fight for urself when u get together wif him. like what's the point rite? u still waste effort fighting for urself.

u said u cared abt wad ur frens say... spending sleepless nights listening to them... but in the end u'r still gona do things ur own way. y still bother listening to them? bcoz u care for them? u care for them but not their advice to u? do u really trust them? Understand that close frens always have their reasons for their decision for u.. they know what's good for u and wun think of anything to hurt u. (if u even consider us as close frens)

or mayb there's a reason for that... somebody was once another person's close fren.. and she chose to trust her so much that she din expect her close fren to have a relationship wif her bf behind her. Somebody was afraid that something like dat might happen to her one day so she chose not to trust any close friends fully.

u realise that we r the onli ones who truly noes both u and the guy... and not ur NY friends? haf ur NY frens interacted wif the guy for the past 2 years? and now u realise that the people who truly understand the whole situation r ur SA schoolmates? and u bliff that true frens will stick still stand by u after what u did... so NY frens did. but do they know the guy well enuff? i can tell u if they truly understand the situation i doubt they'll still do the same thing. you simply love him more than u love us. then stop toking to us if u think that we'r biased and we'r brain-washing u. after all we'r the ones hu truly noes him.

one more thing...u noe u r a pampered child.. so plz do something abt it and stop expecting ppl to pamper u.

if i haven been treating u as a good fren i wun even bother to think abt all these stuff and blog this entry to waste my time and space. u should noe that there's a problem wif u when some of ur frens tok abt u. so make a change plz. plz realise that we'll all tired of hearing u explain y u wanna/are back wif him again wif ur rightful reasonings. onli u and he will think it's the right thing to do.

ok guys lets move on already. and dun dwell on the past. they'r together... just accept it and u dun haf to explain it anymore. just dun mention anything abt ur relationship when we go out or something. we dun really wanna hear it unless we ask abt it.